Brendan Cares

Sometimes I write poetry and stories. I have suffered the worst from depression and lived. Feel free to lay your troubles on me or ask for advice. My blog is a judgement free zone.

Anonymous asked: I need your advice. At first, I thought it was just me hiding everything behind a smile. I've come to realize, when I'm with close friends and family, I actually am happy. I laugh a lot & I act all optimistic & everyone even realizes how happy I am because multiple people have told me, yet, when I'm alone, I think of everything bad in life & start crying. I think about how everyone is leaving me. I feel so alone. I can't sleep. Do I tell someone? What if they don't believe me? Idk what to do.

I know it can feel good to be around people, we’re social animals. sounds like you have some form of depression and it usually hits hardest when alone. Best to speak to a doctor or other health care professional. 

Anonymous asked: I'm happy I didn't cut tonight How do I stop anyway overall because I know it will continue for sure and when people do see my scars I have very convincing alibis so no one is going to be of help.

to stop self harming you have to make peace with yourself. it’s like there’s a bully and a victim in the one person. stop treating yourself like shit. 

ex-traction

the ties that bind
continue to wear and
tear, stretch and
snap

until nothing
reminds me of you
not even your
name

-Brendan X

I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.

—Kurt Vonnegut

(Source: 13neighbors, via rxsesblxdes)

if you’re going through some hard times it has not come to stay, it has come to pass. 

Anonymous asked: I keep everything to myself. I hide everything behind a smile. People have even come up to me & said, "you're, like, the happiest person I've ever met. I love it!", when in reality, I'm alone. I'm suffering. I don't know what to do. I just feel so lonely & pathetic. I feel like everyone leaves me & I can't figure out the reason, except to blame all of my flaws, which I've found quite a lot of. Do I tell my mom or someone? I don't want anyone to worry, but I don't want to feel like this anymore.

i know. it’s not your flaws, it’s that you don’t know what to do with yourself. you need a purpose in life. it doesn’t matter what it is as long as you enjoy it. when you focus on your goals you’re not thinking of your flaws or whatever else.

Who the hell said you no longer had it in you?

—Charles Bukowski 

(Source: feellng, via je-te-deteste)